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Ruminate on what really matters to you and what treasures you are willing to part with. Even if you had some squabbles earlier this month, you have opportunities now for spontaneous adventures and open-hearted conversations. Whether through books or travel, wander curling pathways to gain fresh understanding. Around the 20th, some rough scrapes can foil your desire for everyone to get along. Your non-confrontational style can be your worst enemy. Now is the time to directly state what you need most. Stop trying to “make things work”. Take stock of what really matters.
October 23 through November 8, is an opportune time to make sacrifices. Choose wisely or the gods and demons will choose for you. Consider what really matters to you, especially with people in your life. Relationships are a bundle of affections, favors, tricks and treats. You may experience a clash of wills around November 5-6 that could involve deciding what alliances to keep and where to set stricter boundaries. Prioritize your most essential survival needs, taking note of who pays for your lifestyle and who agrees with your core values. By November 10, you will have a chance to lick your wounds and recharge.
Let got of expectations, not people. Look at how other people may be bringing to light your conditioning that is due for an update. Don’t get mad, don’t get even. Just become a new alien. Change your own habits rather than blaming the current circumstances. Set yourself up with a robust healing sanctuary at home. Don’t try to untangle all the crossed wires from the day, just melt into a steamy bath and get some sleep.
Wanting too hard for everything to go according to agreed-upon plans can lead to confusion and maybe even hurt feelings. The mixed messages and elusive promises can feel disorienting and chaotic. On the bright side, you are learning to communicate your wishes to collaborators, employees and partners. You are building shared dreams with other people and it’s going to take some time for these communication lessons to set in. Try not to jump to conclusions or take harshly decisive actions. Wait til the dust settles, which may not totally clear up until January. If anything needs to slough off, it should come easily with little to no effort on your part. Just allow the process to work itself out.
A little extra understanding goes a long way. These days, you may feel like a stranger in a strange land. Your work and regular surroundings may seem unrecognizable to you, alien or uncomfortable. There may be a shift in alliances or a demand for new protocol or daily procedures. While you may wonder who or what you can trust anymore, remember not to take things personally. Even if conversations feel like a thousand tiny attacks and dredge up hard feelings and memories, see this as an educational life adventure. Like a college student with way more homework than seems humanly possible, exhaustion can stoke extra emotions. Keeping a good work/health routine can steady you through this time.
Pretend you are a guest, or an envoy, here to learn the customs of this strange planet. Take copious notes. Avoid squabbles. Even if it feels like people are teaming up against you with their annoyingly insignificant details, be a generous listener. October 19 is a good date to show you understand through words or actions. Through all of it, go for stability and kindness. Even if peoples’ complaints drum up big emotions or trauma patterns, keep it simple and grounded with a steady daily routine.
This month you can push for achieving tangible goals that feel good to you. Swing for the fences. Take extra doses of T. Burst through the drywall while straddling a wrecking ball. Risk being destructive about the breakable items you have been precious about. Go for that grant that’s out of reach. Talk back to your boss. Tell the world that they need to move. But you aren’t just being destructive. You come bearing gifts: deliver the action plan. You won’t ruffle anyone’s feathers if you barge in with how you are going to turn things around, make something spectacular. Trust in yourself to stake your claim. Even if it’s a tall order, figure out the follow-through later. Around October 23, you can have some clarity on the path forward.
What you make in this life will last for eons. Right now, you stand at a crossroads. Will you choose the conventional concern-driven path following the lead of a hierarchical design. WIll you choose what you enjoy, believe in and know better than the back of your hand? This eclipse, give yourself quiet time to ruminate and scry up the answer to this question: What are you really working towards?
Don’t fight the feeling. Now is the time to lean into your talent for going against the grain. But instead of going against the grain of cultural norms, can you go against the grain of your own prized eccentricities and steadfast convictions? This month you have the potential to see the world differently by dumbly romping through the wilderness of civilization. Actually listen to people. Find concord, harmony and understanding that brightens your heart. Allow a supple, gentle glow to permeate your bod. Go on adventures with friends and embrace the simple pleasures this world has to offer.
After October 24 and into the first half of November, you sort out an array of new perspectives. As you question your sense of reality, looking through a new lens reveals missing pieces about your origins and conditioning. If you fight against the “simpletons” and “sheeple” around you it will feel painful and you won’t see them for who they really are. This is an opportunity to reveal the origin story of your outlook, beliefs and patterns. Newfound clarity helps you see your current environment more clearly. The more you go with it and admit to not knowing, the easier this whole process will be.
As you zero in on what you want out of this phase of life, you are bombarded by thoughts about how things could or should be. Take in cues as to how to incorporate the things you most value, the things that matter, that nourish you, body and soul. While you experience this internal understanding, you are also on the receiving end of other people’s worries, complaints and concerns. Or it may be that a side of you is worried about how things are going financially and logistically. Worries about what is fair in the way assets are distributed in relationships can stem from emotions like fear and desperation. Take note of the real world observations that are being brought to your attention.
Building towards October 12, you could feel harangued by facts about how you share roles and resources. While it’s important to capture these concerns in writing (make a list), you can let the emotional intensity slide. Find a good compromise on October 19. This eclipse season (Oct 25-Nov 8), you are developing your cloudy visions into a realistic framework, like a photo developing in a dark room, to reveal how your true wishes will form the next leg of your journey.
As you contend with confusing conversations with a yappy dog on a long leash, notice your emotions. Don’t let a tiny spoiled chihuahua trigger you. Ask yourself:
“What am I REALLY mad about?”
Go deep to find the answer. When our baggage rules us, the stuff we check off the to-do list will need to get done again the right way later on. Sometimes we have to walk with one foot in this life and one foot in our dreamspace in order to get things done well.
Around October 17-19, some of what the yappy doggos are saying might start to make a little bit of sense. New facts come to light, but may not be what you want to hear. Learn to not react bigly to every annoying detail. During the eclipses (Oct 25-Nov 8), stay tuned into your subconscious to guard against getting triggered by nonsense. You can process with more emotions than just angry reactions. Sob to your pets about your sorrows. Go swimming to rinse out your system. Make abstract splatter paintings about how you feel. After the dust settles, you will have a chance to give a measured response. But for right now, take in all the new information.
My grandmother worked for the county clerk in Youngstown, Ohio when Ella Fitzgerald married her bassist, Ray Brown. It was big news at the time. My grandmother remarked on Fitzgerald’s big presence and their positive energy as a couple. It was a happy marriage and they adopted a son together. Their son was raised by Fitzgerald’s aunt because they were both on the road constantly. Ray and Ella ended up divorcing 6 years later because they were both too busy with touring.
Sometimes you have to let go of what you love. This month there could be lots of give-and-take. You are measuring what you get out of your relationships and whether it’s really worth it when you add up the good and subtract the bad. You may be weighing the hardship and hustle that it takes to get all the things you love. Every one of the little comforts that make life feel livable may not all be necessary. Everything comes at a cost. Sometimes you take a loss in the short term to get rid of something that is not working out for the long term. Especially during the eclipses from October 25 – November 8, be ready to accept some sacrifices.
Lean extra hard on the Gemini skill of keeping it light. Try everything once, but don’t go all in. Pay attention, take note of the precise details, and clearly communicate while keeping your tone easy breezy. On October 12, there could be a war of words, but stay upbeat, positive and detached. Bring in a fun, rough and tumble energy. Shake hands and share a drink afterwards. Bring joy, play, the spirit of friendship. You can even let go of obligations, duties and routines that feel expired.
The eclipses on October 25 and November 8 are a renewal process for you, a dormant period to undergo transformation. I will leave you with advice on caring for a molting duck from fowlguide.com:
“Molting ducks need a little bit of understanding and patience. Molting periods are likely to be the times that your ducks are at odds with each other. Individuals are likely to be grumpy, as molting isn’t very comfortable, and the strain on their bodies can be great. Newly grown feathers can be sensitive and fragile and can bend and break easily. Do your best to avoid touching your ducks and give them all plenty of space during molting seasons.”
There is a lot going on in your world right now, both at home and at work. It’s a balancing act to conserve and manage your energy. At work, you are on the spot to perform and handle obligations, pressured by peoples’ expectations of you. Meanwhile, there is a lot to take care of at home, errands and relationship needs. The saying, “no rest for the weary” comes to mind. Work and home responsibilities are squeezing out much-needed alone time. October 19 could offer a nice little moment to get some peace and quiet.
During the eclipse period between October 25 and November 8, there may be a lot of push-and-pull and frenetic energy, but don’t get caught up in the swelling momentum. Ride the waves and position yourself to take advantage of the existing power. Work with the energy, like a surfer seeing a new wave on the horizon, paddling hard at the beginning, then letting the wave do the work and maneuvering on the board so it doesn’t go too fast or slow. Don’t fight or fret. work with the energy (not against it). Work it to your advantage. Find cushions of space for yourself to rest. Conserve your energy around the situation.
Even though your foundation is being detonated and restructured, this could (in a way) be a positive time for you. If you are open to the unexpected and keep a curious mindset, you can have some cool conversations and learn to reuse things and ideas in an ingenious way. Embrace the new and accept a childish, imaginative reframe of life. There is no getting around that this is a disorienting time, like the story of Alice in Wonderland, where things grow “curioser and curioser” as she tries to make sense of what is really going on. If you worry too much, you could feel sunk, or despondent about it. Delight in weird perspectives, in “not-knowing” and frame the cacophony as a treasure box of jewels.
This eclipse season (Oct 25-Nov 8), open yourself to what may unfold during your soul’s journey. Say yes to unexpected opportunities that you never would have chosen, but that may turn out to be more wondrous than you could have predicted. Even if the ground is quicksand and the sky is swirling, just do your best. It’s the experience of the adventure that matters. Go along for the ride and you will come back a changed and more worldly person.
The Serenity Prayer was made for times like these. Although you may have new opportunities, you are also assessing if it’s really worth it. The question is whether the work aligns with your values in the way you imagined. Forward motion at work and taking responsibility pays off, but financial gains are at the expense of your personal mojo or may come with relationships that take a toll. A face-off on October 12 can be followed by finally being able to talk some sense into a delusional, idealistic or passionate partner, colleague, employee or boss.
By the eclipses October 25 and November 8, you could be feeling drained, and in assessment mode, taking names and making plans. Know your own agenda, set boundaries and don’t get pulled into nonsensical conversations. Step around the chaos. Take a last-minute flight to somewhere magical (or read a book or pray yourself away to another land). At the beginning of “Feel So Different” Sinéad O’Connor said the Serenity Prayer. After the eclipses you may feel so different.
“We spent a long time talking
I thought they meant every word they said
But like everyone else, they were stalling
And now they seem so different…
… The whole time I’d never seen
All I’d need was inside me
And now I seem so different”
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Now is the time to ask a million questions. You may think you know the answers, but you really don’t. Everyone all together knows the answers, so the more you ask people, the more you will know the most. Here are some question-asking tips.
First, set your tone to open-hearted and neutral. Learn how to ask open-ended questions, where the respondent is able to describe things in their own words (not fill in your blanks). Inquire further, like a 3-year-old… but why? but why? but why? Get comfortable with awkward silence. Big quiet moments will get filled up with the best answers. Be a curious listener for days on end and watch your knowledge grow.
Kanye West’s struggle with bipolar disorder has led him to say and do a lot of things that don’t align with his core identity. But he has said profound things with his music over the years. In the song “All Falls Down” Kanye admits to having a “problem with spending” and talks about how people mask self esteem issues with having nice things. It’s the song with the chorus that goes, “When it all falls down who you going to call?”
The music video takes place at an airport, where his luggage is scanned. The security guard has him lie down and go through the luggage scanner too, and his whole body is X-rayed.
It’s important to take care of ourselves, wear clothes we look good in, have a home we love and do beautiful things with our lives. This week, think about the balance between the things you love and how your value yourself.
You’re still in a healing space, but suddenly there is more energy available to you. As the conversation heats up, keep tabs on how all the parts fit into the whole. You can work through some interesting ideas and solutions this week.
While there can be moments of headbutting, hitting a dead end or getting lost in the maze, remember to have fun. Turn it into a game. Twist out into a new perspective. Re-map your way of seeing, like toying with a Rubik’s cube. Maggie Appleton wrote that visual maps shift “us from an ‘egocentric’ view of the world to an ‘allocentric’ bird’s eye view.” Guided by your natural curiosity and playfulness, zoom in and then zoom out to get full coverage.
Before cars took over the streets, people used to walk in them and kids used to play in them. Cars killed lots of people in the early years until the car industry started a campaign against “jaywalking” in the 1920s. By the 1940s, it became common to designate special areas for kids to play.
Full of construction detritus, old paint cans and tires, “junk playgrounds” were proto-playgrounds. Over the decades, parents wanted safer places for their kids to play. One of the safest playground inventions, the ball pit, was invented by designer, Eric McMillan. He was inspired by imagining what it would be like to float around in a jar of pickled onions.
The internet has popularized urban legends about the dangers of ball pits, saying they are spiked with deadly bacteria, heroin-filled syringes and half-eaten chicken nuggets. These untrue stories gained traction, so now places like McDonalds and Chuck E. Cheese removed their ball pits for safety reasons.
This week, remember the things you used to do as a kid that were dangerous, fun or both. Consider what what seemed safe, but wasn’t, and vice versa and how memory is rife with misperception. Oh, and play like you’re a kid again.
Even if there is a sense of urgency, a need to do things right and the heightened discussions that go along with it, you can still put on your charm. Consider what everyone brings to the table with authentic curiosity. Someone can offer a true gem, a perspective you had never thought of before. Look at all your conversations like tunneling through ancient caverns and mythical forests, where you could stumble on a magical key at any moment.
And as you consider what you like and what you don’t, you take a closer look at your values and self-worth, how you make a living and the objects you own that make you feel good. You may find that what works for you doesn’t necessarily work for everyone, and distinguishing that difference is part of your journey to self discovery.
Language has two purposes, 1) as a mode of public “expression”, a vehicle to communicate with others, and 2) as a tool for internal “reasoning”, to build ideas.
One can keep a personal notebook for “reasoning” and give a public presentation for “expression”. With visual languages, like drawing and map-making, one can use a sketchbook to “reason” through a composition and produce a print series to “express”. Consider how ideas can be designed with wiggle room or modularity.
While you build concrete ideas to express to other people, remember to not take yourself too seriously. Remember the malleability of thoughtforms, and the humanity of yourself and others. Even though you have constructed well-designed concepts, expressing this to others may change your hardened idea. To soften your designs, maybe you can sing an important algorithm in the form of a song?
Garden metaphor moment! Brought to you by Dulcet Loam Seeds.
By now, you know which of your seedlings have grown into full plants. And you know which plants didn’t make it, that you can toss into the compost bin, to help make rich soil for next year. Now is a time to enjoy that one tomato plant that is producing tomatoes at an alarming rate, like a 1950s horror movie, and to share with all the people around you. Some tomatoes you can can. Let me rephrase that, put some tomatoes in glass canning jars. You can can-can, as in dance while canning. Ultimately too outrageous with all the kicking.
The theme is resource distribution, using all the parts, some for now, some for later, some for you, some for your friends.
Harper Forbes and Prakrit Jain used iNaturalist (an app where anyone can upload photos and collectively identify species) to discover two new scorpions in California. The scorpions, P. soda and P. conclusus, adapted for salty alkali basins with high pH soils. Scorpions fluoresce under ultraviolet light, so Harper and Prakrit used blacklights at night to find scorpions on the playa, in cracks in the hard clay and in bushes.
P. soda scorpions live on a few miles of federally-protected land, but P. conclusus scorpions can only be found on a narrow strip of unprotected land, and Harper says that “The entire species could be wiped out with the construction of a single solar farm, mine, or housing development.”
Rely on community for answers. Adapt to a changing environment. Glow in the dark.
There are tricks to make things easier. You can quickly learn a new language with spaced repetition flashcards that are timed to exploit the intervals that the brain most effectively remembers information. Linguist John McWhorter has an even faster language-learning trick: “Sleep with somebody.”
Drafting is a travel trick to conserve energy. Birds fly in formation to reduce drag. Trailing birds benefit from gliding in the lead bird’s slipstream. Cars can save up to 50% in fuel costs by “drafting”, or riding in the slipstream of the vehicle ahead of them (i shouldn’t be telling this to freedom-loving sag risers. do not do this in the wild. there are better ways to die). Bicyclists take advantage of this little trick, too. Stronger cyclists spend more time in the lead to help slower riders keep up with the pack while developing stamina.
This week, figure out teamwork tricks to make things easier for everyone.
Spanish retail chain, Eroski, has both worker-run stores and boss-managed stores. A research study found that the worker-run Eroski stores had higher sales growth because workers “have a large financial stake in the firm”. In a boss-run environment, workers can be on auto-pilot, but part of the job can be to make the boss happy, sometimes to accept unfair dynamics or ineffective policies.
When workers own the company, they take on more risk and reward. At The Cheeseboard in Berkeley, workers train in customer service, baking, accounting and consensus decision-making. Everyone is involved at every level of the bakery business. It’s more work to work together, but also empowering.
Truths to weigh this week (sorry I know cap risers already do this all the time): More ownership amounts to more responsibility. Equitable exchange requires developing better communication skills. There is a give-and-take in how you set up value exchanges.
If you live in a city, you likely live near a busy road or highway. You can get right on the road – a fast route to work or anywhere. But the downsides include lung cancer, asthma, heart disease and early death. Is the fun of living in a city and the convenience of living near a highway worth the health loss? Is the isolation of living in the middle of health-giving nature a better trade-off?
This reminds me of how even really good relationships have their trade-offs. Humans are inherently imperfect, and when they get close, there’s always a give-and-take. Sometimes you really love someone, but you just have a feeling that something is off.
This week, focus on the trade-offs in relationships. Identify what works and what doesn’t and find kind ways to co-plan for new relationship infrastructure design.
Geoff Manaugh wrote that post-wall Berlin “felt like a triple-exposure photograph… a haze of unbuilt architecture, whole neighborhoods yet to be constructed, everything still possible, out of focus somehow.” It held that dreamy, abandoned quality, places that your imagination could skateboard through with other poets, artists and adventurers.
As we now know, Berlin and other cities have been taken over, built up and claimed. As Manaugh writes, “The more that was built, the more Berlin seemed to lose this inchoate appeal.” Some of that natural rawness was preserved in a waterscape of bridges, underground pools and reeds filtering stormwater nestled within Potsdamer Platz, a huge, flashy shopping and business district.
Right now, you have that “inchoate appeal” of undeveloped land, layers of memory, overgrown weeds and shadows that slap in the wind. As you rebuild, keep some of this wild magic with you always.
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There is a special timing to when a tightly-bound bud unfolds its petals, like a dancer’s arms and neck flaring back in an expression of emotional release. Coming into your own has been different than you ever could have outlined or deliberately chosen. To take on a new role takes listening to a special timing, with long boring waits and unexpected bursts of action.
This week you drive right into the heart of your most authentic center. Proxy parts of yourself fall away, those that you held onto while waiting for the real parts to be born. You are able to listen more calmly, patiently and thoroughly, IF you choose to. (that’s a big “if”)
The nature documentary, Castles of Clay, examines the architecture and homekeeping of African termites. Outside, the structure looks like a miniature mountain, reminiscent of a Gaudi residence. Inside, the termites have a well-organized structure of caverns, a section for the dead, for breeding… there are ventilation shafts and even a mushroom garden. These fungi cannot live without the termites, and the termites are fully dependent on the fungi for their survival as well.
What is home to you? How are retrofitting, rearranging and remaking your home? This is the time to dig deep, excavate, navel-gaze and create the home that feels super cozy and spiritually nourishing for you.
Dear gentle, ladybug. Time is one of those interesting subjects that a Gemini could flit on forever about, right? In that case, let’s give time a glance. If today is today and the time is feeling like rest is needed, then take it.
Assuming your throat is saying to your mind, “Let’s sing and shout!” Then, by all means, let it. It’s time for singing and shouting! But if your throat says to write and whisper, then it’s time for that. Find a cozy, soft closet to huddle in and lean your head against the pillow and let the cat purr on your lap.
When it’s time to come out of your soul-searching, singing and automatic writing escapades… you will feel it. And when that happens, you can always say yes to that impulse too.
You know that feeling when you are having a chill drink under the moon under a tree listening to twanging guitar country music that sounds like water and you’re allowed to stare off wistfully without feeling too cheesy because so much shit is actually going on that you legitimately earned this moment so may as well take it and let the vibe take care of you for a moment or two while you picture scenes from your day or years ago even and then fade in a sliver of moon and the cool of your drink and the sound of leaves and let it all make sense in its own way?
Telephone companies did not serve rural districts until after the 1940s. Farmers ran wire from their home phones to their barbed wire fencing, which they gave a slight electrical charge so it could carry a signal to the neighboring farm.
A region may have dozens of local farmhouses all connected up together by a “party line”, mostly connected by barbed wire. The phone would ring in all houses, and everyone could listen in on the call. Sometimes a neighbor would play music or read the newspaper for everyone to listen to.
As you learn new ways of setting boundaries and connecting with people for practical shared goals, take inspiration from this example of crafting ways to creatively reuse and restructure communication.
In 1815, Ada Lovelace was born to Lady and Lord Byron, a mathematician and a poet, respectively. It was a polarizing time, between the Industrial Revolution automating daily life and Romanticism idealizing nature with emotional indulgence. Lovelace’s parents split up before her birth, and she was gifted with both her dad’s poetic vision and her mom’s analytical mind.
In her description of Charles Babbage’s “analytical engines”, Lovelace penned the very first computer algorithm. She distinguished that a calculator just crunches numbers, whereas a computer can manipulate any data, including images, words, music. Whereas most people thought Babbage was mad as a hatter, Lovelace was able to picture what was possible and put it into clear language.
This week, you may feel pressured to describe what you mean, and illuminate a new dimension in the process.
Sometimes you can catch more flies with knowing your endgame, and honey. You may not want flies though anyways. Who wants flies? Or, maybe it doesn’t really matter what they are, as long as they like you.
In the late 60s Ursula Le Guin sent a story to Playboy. “Unwilling to terrify these vulnerable people,” she sent it under the non-gendered name U.K. Le Guin. When they asked for a bio, she “saw the whole panorama of U.K.’s life as a gaucho in Patagonia… the abbot of a Coptic monastery in Algeria. We’d tricked them slightly, though, and I didn’t want to continue the trickery. But what could I say? ‘He is a housewife and the mother of three children’?”
Playboy printed the story and fabricated bio. With the check, Le Guin bought a new red VW bus in cash.
A creative movement grows like a tree, the trunk twisting and scabbing with the environment. The branches reach towards the sun, in flux with the wind and creatures that live in its hair. Growing above and below, intertwining with different living beings, from lychens to mycelia.
One of my favorite diversions is to explore how music styles proliferate new music styles, growing organically. Right now you are steeped in multilayered social inter-influencing. At times, actively nurturing, other times letting nature take its course. How will you take snapshots of this nascent phase – like a baby scrapbook so you don’t forget? Here are some Music Trees to inspire you:
The 2015 Paris climate agreement works on the basis of “reciprocal action”, meaning that countries follow the lead of each other. For example, when Trump stopped the US effort to help the global climate, other countries stopped trying too.
Yesterday, Biden signed the Inflation Reduction Act, which includes a climate tax bill that will significantly cut US greenhouse-gas emissions. The US is the largest greenhouse gas emitter, so this will have a HUGE impact. But even bigger is the US influence other governments to mirror this positive action to reduce emissions.
You have some great ideas on essential next steps and visionary ways of doing things. Zoe Chance offers good tips on how to persuade a group to accept a good idea – I hope it helps you this week.
Yesterday I told a dancer that I had knee surgery in December. The change in my movement is a point of pride, how a scar adds character. But it’s both sad and joyful. He offered hope, but also understanding that there is permanent loss. Some of his friends fully recovered from surgery, but their dance will always be different due to having a different body mechanics.
Artist-collaborators, Basel Abbas and Ruanne Abou-Rahme, make work that is about not forgetting. They explore “how experiences of loss and expressions of resistance from Arabic-speaking contexts can be communicated, archived, and preserved.” Their work is about creating community from a place of honoring loss, painful history, cultural pride and its unique expressions.
Can you move forward without “letting it go”, with all your parts, but some in pieces, a fractured wholeness, a living archive?
Western science used to describe the world in more mechanical terms. For example, the belief that the planets were arranged in perfect order of spiritual perfection, held in unchanging orbit by an ectoplasmic substance called the celestial spheres. Darwin’s theory of evolution was interpreted as a ladder of development, starting at inferior and moving towards superior. Old science paralleled the social strata, the rules of how bodies were (and still are) policed according to class, race, gender, etc.
With the science of quantum physics, we observe the smallest particles as waves, which may change or take shape, with the act of observing affecting the outcome. Parallel to current science, our cultural understanding is more open to complexity and change, and conscious of how we affect each other through observation and identification. I hope your internal structure is undergoing a demolition and weird experimental regrowth (not a cold hardening) that reminds me of this shift in viewpoints.
There are so many levels of reality, and it can be hard to point to what is real, and what isn’t. Layering can give a more complete and satisfying representation. But it can be more confusing, and hard to tell what is really going on when you are tuned into multiple layers at once.
It reminds me of watching a documentary movie, where as a viewer, I am clocking the story as it was edited, the subjects themselves, the facade the subjects want to front, the lighting, the sound design, the network, the historical context, additional info from Wikipedia, the popcorn I am eating, the sound of a car alarm outside, the late summer breeze… Reality is gleaned piecemeal, I think. Yet deception abounds, I think. What do you think?
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In spite of pressure to align to the established conventions of your social sphere, you are making headway in the value you place on your work, and the things you contribute to this earth place we live on. Everything is fresh, fractured and exciting all at once.
Moving forward without needing to force a typical motivation towards a congratulatory type of success. It’s leading with all the parts of you, unapologetically. But without all the parts in working order, it is an even more bold move, more self-assured. Everything will figure itself out as you become more, and lose more parts of you that now, at this point in time, were never really you anyways. I am thinking about the first three lines from this new Ocean Vuong poem, “Beautiful Short Loser”:
Stand back, I’m a loser on a winning streak.
I got your wedding dress on backwards & playing air guitar on this dirt road.
I taste my mouth the most &, let me tell ya, what a blessing.
In “Crying in H Mart”, Michelle Zauner talks about how her mother would often ask for “the usual” when ordering food and drinks.
“What I never seem to forget is what my mother ate. She was a woman of many ‘usuals.’ Half a patty melt on rye with a side of steak fries to share at the Terrace Cafe after a day of shopping.”
She went on to describe a scrumptious list of things her mom liked to order. Zauner’s mom observed other peoples’ favorites as a way to show affection, to notice what gives them pleasure.
“I remember these things clearly because that was how my mother loved you, not through white lies and constant verbal affirmation, but in subtle observations of what brought you joy, pocketed away to make you feel comforted and cared for without even realizing it… She remembered which banchan side dish you emptied first so the next time you were over it’d be set with a heaping double portion, served alongside the various other preferences that made you, you.”
One way to show love to yourself or others is to acknowledge personal tastes, the things that make you (or others) feel comfortable and alive. The things that fulfill you may not always fit into the cultural norms or align with sober agreements you made in an important way. You can break the rules like eggs, fry them on a griddle and eat them for breakfast. If that is delicious to you.
“Black and orange stray cat sittin’ on a fence
Ain’t got enough dough to pay the rent
I’m flat broke, but I don’t care
I strut right by with my tail in the air”
– Lyrics from The Stray Cats song, “Stray Cat Strut“
Even if you feel a little rudderless these days, you still got cat class and you got class style. Strutting through the night, taking a second look, to re-orient yourself and re-map your terrain.
Nighttime, speckled with stars, planets and a changing Moon is a time of dreams, the half of our day where we peer what’s underneath. These days you are able to talk about things that are under the surface. To have words for what was previously in your subconscious understanding. Feeling out new truths through conversations with all kinds of cats. Tabbies. Black. Orange. All the varieties known to Cat Fancy Magazine, and then some (the strays breed how they want to breed. meow.).
Revealing insights. Excavation of ideas, perspectives and understandings. Trying out new ways of capturing ideas. Breaking the mold and experimenting out on the town, or in your imagination. You are free to prowl.
“Wild stray cat, you’re a real gone guy
I wish I could be as carefree and wild
But I got cat class, and I got cat style
When you are raised with a certain framework that was passed down to you, you hold onto that as an adult. It isn’t until you see it with adult eyes that you may alter or expand on the given way of seeing things.
It reminds me of a This American Life episode, “Kid Logic”, where they investigate how when you assume a thing to be true as a child, and don’t re-evaluate it, you may continue to believe even a false belief. For example, one woman told the story that when she was like 9 or 10, she came up with the idea that unicorns are an endangered species. Why not? A narwhal is a whale with a horn that is endangered, it’s feasible that there could be a horse with a horn on its forehead.
Through her twenties, she hadn’t ever dusted off that old belief and re-examined it. She had let it be true in her library of facts. It wasn’t until she asked friends, in all seriousness, if unicorns were still endangered. In a moment of embarrassment, she realized that this “fact” was not true.
Some of the stories from the podcast episode were white lies that parents or siblings told them when they were small, in order to save them from a harsh reality that a little kid can’t handle. Some were handed-down beliefs, unique to their own weird family.
Now is a fine time to dust off and question some of those ancient, crusty beliefs. To get out of your box, travel, read, philosophize, fact check and re-envision your values, beliefs and what could be.
Things are heating up in your kingdom. You are receiving lots of attention, some of it resoundingly wonderful, some of it is more challenging. In particular there could be an upset or a clamor for change, in an area of life where you are being seen and taking leadership. People are asking you to suddenly shift, a change of strategy to get better results on a collaboration. A sudden request to drastically change your tune. It’s like, “But this is me! And this is the song we’ve been rehearsing!”
Can a tiger change it’s stripes? Can a sparrow change its morning song to the world? Well, actually, a tiger can sort of change its stripes (through natural selection). And, yes, sparrows and many songbirds frequently change their chirps. For example, the Great Tit (yes, Leo, your tits are great too), when living in an urban population sings faster and in a higher pitch. This is so that it can be heard above the environmental noises of the city.
After the Full Moon Thursday night, some of the tension may ease, but there will still be a pressing need to change your tune. Be ready to re-invigorate and re-structure the way you partner and get your work done.
This week the focus is on healing and soul-searching. There is a lot going on behind the scenes, whether with therapy, self care, new sudden realizations about life and self, or feeling the struggle to create a work-life balance.
Get to work! Just kidding… don’t overdo it. Keep showing up, stay present and stay focused on getting things done in the moment. It could be hard to feel organized with so much going on with real world responsibilities and inner revelations. Just be. One foot in front of the other.
You are learning a wisdom path towards simple things, the quest towards the mythical work-life balance. The thing you can never have, yet must constantly strive towards. Whether it’s a koan or a riddle or some random sentence I just wrote, you are working through the hard stuff. This week, you may get insights into past suffering, could stumble on new pleasure highways or suddenly find some other kind of lovely beastly treasure all your own.
Hey, how is my favorite shape shifting superhero doing? Able to be in all places at once. Capable of being all things to all people. Family, work, friends and even your own personal needs may all be clamoring for your attention this week. Public projects and group connections may be winning in this war of getting your attention. But your family and more intimate relationships are purring, pawing and meowing for your love.
The sign of Libra reminds me of the superhero, Plastic Man, whose body is malleable, somewhere between liquid and solid, he has complete control over his structure. He can bend and bounce and stretch and contort in all unimaginable ways. But it is because of his temperate, middle-ground nature that he is able to maintain such flexibility.
Plastic Man’s supple strength is vulnerable to extreme temperatures or sudden changes of any kind. If he is forced into a sudden shift of environment, his body could shatter, melt or solidify.
The Libra constitution is similar. You can bend to so many peoples’ needs, as long as you modulate your shape shifting at an even-keel, gentle pace.
Is this sultry tango with others, or actually with yourself? You have sensed and probed on every level what works and what doesn’t, but you also want to hear out what your partner is bringing to the table. You want to avoid conflict, and all you are asking for is a teensy weensy bit of… complete and unadulterated control!
More than any sign, Scorpio knows the value of the saying, “With great risk comes great reward.” Important partnerships are bringing big change to the table that can feel unsettling or destabilizing, but you know in your gut that this disruption is towards a more generative future. Nothing can stay the same, and you know that sacrificing the old ways of doing things is key to staying alive.
Current relationships may bring up a love/hate dynamic, the very type of dynamic you love to hate. Maybe not that extreme, but there’s a back and forth between my way versus your way. The fulcrum is holding the center, while plotting how much to risk for eventual reward. This game is thrilling, annoying, but also really fun. Ultimately, being willing to lose your old communication style through play and experimentation will pay off.
pools below? don’t
:your safe parlor
your safe larder await
. the flood is outside
There is what you want, and then there is where you are in the process of getting there. My Sagittarius Rising neighbor, Cleve, leads a fabrication workshop. He has designed puppets for Jim Henson, over-sized animatronics for Comic-Con and numerous sculptural pieces for the film industry. Cleve said that over a decade ago, when he was in his early 20s, he envisioned this job for himself. Through intentional magic and willpower… poof! his dream job appeared.
The ability to envision a reality for yourself seems to be a distinctly Sagittarian trait. Whether magic is true, or it’s just about enthusiastically positioning yourself well, that is up to you to decide. This week, the reality you want to be true is getting road-tested. As you experiment with how your creations are coming along, you may go back to the drawing board and rework your designs.
After work, Cleve, is always smoking on the stoop, ready talk about the woes of trying to make his visions a reality. Puffs of smoke fluffing around his head like dreams, Cleve also loves to share photos of his awesome creations when they successfully come into fruition how he imagined. As much as Cleve is a dreamer, he is also a materials guy, and knows every type of material out there, and puts in the hard work of collaborating to find ingenious ways to materialize an imaginary character.
Clout and self-esteem are inter-connected, whether or not they should be. In a way, we are all inventing our identity and self worth through achievements, important roles, personal swagger, social networks and the really cool things we have. It starts as early as preschool. Little kids use their first words to state the objects they identify with. They talk about their parents with competitive pride.
I used to take my nephew to preschool. His dad was not in his life, and when the other kids would boast about their dads, it was a huge blow to his 3-year-old ego. His eyes, so gentle and quivering. Protective rage bubbled up in me. I wanted to instantly fix humanity for him at that moment. To magically undo the status one gets from having the awesomest toy in their hands and the most importantest parental figures. (for the record, my nephew was qualitatively superior to every one of these toddlers)
This identification with stuff lasts through adulthood. Going to a party or bar, it’s important to have something in your hand. Even better if you are holding a drink that you ordered like you’re James Dean. You can saunter around with your “jack double rocks” like you own the place. But maybe this week, if you order your drinky drink like a know-nothing shrimp, be sure to tell yourself you’re still a top-notch human specimen.
Sometimes there is nobody to ask for advice or help, even when you feel most naked and afraid. The friends, family and partnerships we rely on for support are sometimes so embroiled in the situation itself that we can’t ask them for guidance on the situations they are also wrapped up in.
In these cases, we rely on ourselves. There is a next level resourcefulness, getting inspiration from the internet, from reading stories or manuals, from wandering into rabbit holes that lead you to god knows where. It really is “god” knows where, because I think there is an intuitive stumbling on the answer that happens when we follow a wild hair. It’s in this seeming random derive style rambling that the answer is derived.
There is a parking lot in my neighborhood in Hollywood, adjacent to the LGBT Center, that is fully surrounded by towering spray-painted graffiti murals. When I walk the neighborhood, I often wind up in this mural grove. Being unofficial, made by local artists on their own volition makes it feel like a freedom zone, which opens up independent soul-searching for me. It’s an accidental destination. A place my magic 8-ball feet take me when I am looking for an answer that may or may not have a question.
G’day my sweet, slippery angel fishes. How’s it shimmering? Hope it’s been shimmering strangely. Your independence and personal power is to be found in the most flip-side of places. When life gets hard, reach out to the cement walk and soften it with your finger tips. Don’t let anything stop you from exploring in a weird and uncalculating way. You need to be appreciated for how you dig up the overlooked and materialize the way you imagine it.
“I sometimes feel like I am physicalizing elements that intrigue me from historical accounts, bringing them into a space where I—and others—can encounter them and renegotiate or recirculate their meaning.” – Candice Lin, artist referring to new installation, Seeping, Rotting, Resting, Weeping
You are remixing meaning through creative envisioning. Don’t let doubt seep in. Bring in the people who are ready to appreciate your talents and way of altering perception. It is important that you fiercely protect your personal journey to define what matters to you about your world, about yourself, everything from your values to your possessions and how you make a living.
Scroll to your rising sign to get your horoscope below.
Go Aries! Hurrah! Pushing forward for what you need and deserve isn’t always pretty, but the results of your effort will be a thing of beauty. You need to get paid and feed your babies, both literal and figurative. You are showing us how it’s done, leading the way in how to stand up for your self worth. Even though there’s a lot of in-the-moment action, do what you can to plan for the big picture. Apply some moderation. Make a budget. Plan for the future.
With all the pressure of responsibility to family, friends, reputation and living up to your values, phew! I tell you what! You need to blow off some steam. Create little oases here and there to find your fun. Plan little pockets of time and space to be a kid again. Have a really good time with other living beings you like being around, whether it’s a summer BBQ, watching a movie with your cat, clowning around with little kids, playing cards or finding some romantic moments.
Blow off at least one of your obligations to find time to gaze at the stars. To picture a world that tends to the pain points that were ignored, labeled as too-small or in-the-way. You can create a world where people can be more authentically themselves. What is it all worth if not to give your inner child at least some of the dreams they imagined possible?
You aren’t the same Taurus we thought we knew. Sturdy. Reliable. What!? Not this week. You made it to Oz and are back again with a whole new level of appreciation for your unique way of being in the world. You are revealing your true self. Everyone is loving the new you. Don’t spend all your wardrobe, hair and jewelry money in one place. Set aside a monthly stipend for personal style. Come up with a strategy. Make a look book and plan on acquiring pieces slowly over time.
Get thee to a karaokery. Sing with friends. Write a song. Learn a song. Listen to music. Make art with your crew. Do things that tell or re-tell your story. Whether it’s long walks with friends, jam sessions with collaborators. Maybe it’s getting real with colleagues and co-workers. Or you could read or watch things that feed your perspective and then talk to yourself about it. Research studies show that talking out loud to yourself while re-thinking things makes you smarter. Write letters to community leaders or public figures. Translate your personal experience to your wider belief system, personal values and community aspirations.
You have an opportunity to grow through conversation and re-orienting your worldview. Kill off dead weight, old beliefs and stodgy ways of thinking that don’t hold up to your lived experience. Charge through old assumptions, crashing expensive tea ware into a thousand irreparable shards (sorry for ruining these valuables and for the bull in a china shop reference for the tauruses). Make way for a new you on every level.
Invite new people in to your life. See the people in your life in a new light. Attract mutually beneficial relationships. As you resolve old issues, set boundaries or even say no to the dusty antiques old relationships hoisted on you, there is a new social fabric readying a soft landing, to welcome your arrival. People want to help you walk into your new light. Whether you meet them this week, or in the future, they are out there. Ask for help when you need it. People are there for you. Some of them have capacity to listen to your story and what you are going through. Just do what Geminis do best, and ask.
Speaking of things Geminis excel at, give yourself the freedom to think differently. Read a book with a totally new perspective. Go on a road trip. Get out of your box. You are rewriting your worldview and putting to rest the stubborn little unresolved scars that have been haunting you throughout your life. Getting perspective can help you shake loose those ghosties.
You don’t always know how the pieces are going to fit together exactly (even though you may want to lol). But you can imagine what it will feel like, allowing your hope and other peoples’ hope to fill in the blanks together in a way that ends up making perfect sense.
You get a true fairy tale this week. I recently saw a Street Food: Latin America episode on Netflix. Emiliana Condori, a successful street vendor in La Paz, Bolivia tells the story of establishing her business. As a child, she found great satisfaction in street vending, but after she got married, her husband would not let her work. They were broke with two little kids, but he still wouldn’t let her work. She caved.
Finally, she decided that she needed to take care of her children by making a living. With fierce conviction, she confronted her husband and began selling rellenos de papa on the street. She was immediately successful. But she continued to run into obstacles.
Most street vendors in La Paz, including Emiliana, are Cholitas, native Bolivian women, recognizable by their bowler hats and super wide, colorful skirts. Racistly, street vending was quasi-legal. Emiliana spent many days and nights in jail. To avoid incarceration, she hired little kids to keep watch, and whistle when the cops came around. Even though she wasn’t getting arrested as often, having to shut down shop at the spur of the moment slowed down the momentum and significantly cut into profits.
Emiliana got political and eventually her community organizing led to legal street vending. Her business sky-rocketed. She opened several stands, but then other vendors, jealous of her success began attacking her. Yet again, she fought tooth and nail, confronting her main attacker and eventually coming to blows with her. It was a physical brawl between two Cholita vendors! It was the final boss level of her life (video game reference).
After this show-down a couple decades ago, the obstacles to her business ended. She easily expanded and was able to send her kids to college. You can see the deep satisfaction she gets from her business and from her children and grandchild.
And that, dear Cancers, is your horoscope for this week, to soak in and unravel in a way makes sense to you.
While I hope you are getting the attention you need, want and freaking deserve, I also hope that you are still giving yourself time to contemplate how far you really want to take things. Let’s shine a light on some of the enticing prospects in your life right now.
On the one hand you may be thirsting after someone who can help take the thorn out of your wounded paw. Or it may be you needing this alone time to help yourself, with the help of loving guides or spirits, or just you to giving yourself some gentle TLC. You may be getting help from someone close to you, a therapist, someone from your past, a family member or tight friend, helping you soften some experiences of loss that you have been wanting to resolve.
On the other hand, you have some interesting characters, project ideas or new potential work opportunities waltzing into on the scene. It’s fun. It’s jazzy cool. Yeahhhhh. There is lot’s to play with and riff on. You have great ideas for how to make something beautiful, unpredictable and “next level”. It could end up infusing your life’s work with meaning and depth.
The word to the wise is to pace yourself. Don’t bite off more than you can chew. Keep it experimental. Wait and see before going all in. If you’re signing contracts, let it be within a limited time frame. If you’re kicking off a new professional career idea, do it as a one-off or limited run. With people you are signing on with, keep it in the probation period, for now. Step out into the spotlight and get that performance high you crave, and reserve for yourself an escape route to a secret hideaway for after the show.
You are cataloging some big breakthroughs that are helping you understand the world differently. It’s been a bumpy ride, but also satisfying. Reminds me of the Edwin Starr song, War, but changing it. We all get to replace a word from a lyric once in our lives, so give me this one. I promise to never again. “Triggers, huh. Yeah! What are they good for? Absolutely everything.”
Recently re-experienced memories freed up some space, which leads to a fresh take on reality. This week you get to experience some of the joys of having re-categorized life and re-oriented yourself. Clear-eyed and excited to weave a new pattern. You will have a couple months to submerge into deep analysis of yourself and your way of thinking. So, you don’t need to know everything right now. Savor this new tome you are perusing.
The exciting thing is that not only do you have this new lease on life and some newly blossoming perspective shifts, you are also connecting with people who excite you. Even if work-life balance or a stressful work situation is hemming in the open skies of your new worldview, it’s part of the story. The forlorn, oft-overlooked oboe section bringing in that doleful tone. For auditory complexity, they say. Odditory complexity, more like it.
There is an aggressive breakdown of your old standby ways of doing things. At the same time, there is a surge of hope, and maybe even some people gracing your social sphere, helping some of your dreams take flight. The view is great from up here.
Can I be a dork today and give us another song lyric but not change the words this time? Okay then, I will. I am thinking of Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen:
“Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?”
Access to wealth, gifts and favors sometimes affects social dynamics in our closest relationships. Imagine a sepia photo from the 1800s of a distinguished banker standing tall, his wife, seated, holds an infant. Standing about them are three adult siblings and a 6-year old child in a sailor suit. This “head of the household” has status in the outside world. He may have status in the home too. Or he may have lost status, at some point, due to an indiscretion or due to losing his wealth. Maybe several decades after his death, his great grandchildren are ashamed for the way he made his money.
Looking at a faded magenta photo from the 1970s of a 3-year-old baby with their 18-year-old parent. Their grandparents resent them. But the young single parent adores the baby, the apple of their eye. Let’s look at another snapshot of a 13-year-old wearing a boarding school blazer and acid-washed GUESS jeans. It’s the late 1980s, and this kid hasn’t seen their parents in months. Even though their birth was planned for, their life is an after-thought.
The way you appreciate your closest relationships has recently shifted. You are seeing the interpersonal dynamics and the give-and-take in a different light. Asserting your independence helps you blossom and come into your own, reinforced by a stronger sense of poise, it could feel like a hard-won windfall benefits your life goals.
Publicly, things are going along swimmingly. Even if it’s not ideal to ask for a raise, you could negotiate better benefits or receive a gift, as appreciation for what you do. Whether it’s just words of recognition or one co-worker you are vibing with, there is a positive note being played here.
How will you remember this moment and the people who mean something to you? How will you remember the time before?
People are coming from out of the woodwork now, interested in partnering or starting something new. In older relationships, you are seeing each other differently, but you want to get down to brass tacks, and wanting to gingerly find out what the other person is bringing to the table. This role may feel like a new one to step into, or one you hadn’t taken as seriously until now. You are giving more energy to relationships than usual, so be sure to give yourself alone to to rest and recharge.
Some of the people who roll into your life right about now might astonish you. There could even be quarrels, misunderstandings or a sense of just not knowing how to handle this, but wanting to see them for who they are, from their own vulnerable position of investing in the things they love.
You are excited to connect to people in ways that feel authentic to you and what you stand for. You are investing in mutually beneficial partnerships that matter to you, to build something meaningful, persistently and patiently over time. In part, you want to create a world that reflects your ideas of universal truth, faith and togetherness. In another way, the pressure to create a meaningful network is more heavy than that.
It stems from a lineage, and the structures and traditions passed down from those who came before. Mentors and/or parent figures have worked hard to lay the foundation, and you have followed suit in building up from the root, in accordance with the universal laws of nature. Riffing on the fundamentals, you are altering the technique, updating it to be more in line with new information, and more true to your individual identity, and the causes you believe in.
Just as you were about to clock out and go home, the alarm sounded. Working non-stop, running on fumes, eventually your instincts kicked in. You have been going deeper into your most authentic expression, its delicious raw snarl being key to a meaningful life. There is irony to the idea of animal aggression carrying with it the seeds of truth, meaning and joy.
More than ever, you see how you can’t move forward, grow into success, until you embrace the most childish, raw and base parts of your essence. You are learning to trust these parts to lead the way. And to speak up, in order to survive, and to redefine what survival and prosperity means. To bring your group to safety, to a place you can all thrive, using your knowledge and skills in an inventive way. Your drive and determination kicks into a new gear.
Your primary motivation stems from people you care about. You notice their pain, and you want them to know that you see them. But it’s not just empty promises or simple acknowledgment. You want to deliver the goods, to send them money, care packages, real opportunities and set them up for decades to come. It could be blood relations, or people you have come to depend on like family. You feel indebted to them, not as a burden or obligation, but as a life-affirming belief in your inherent connection.
Unexpected responsibilities, when you have to dig deep, to sacrifice for something you believe in – these are the moments when you cut a path more true to your calling than you could have planned for.
You are reinventing how you earn your livelihood, on the fly, by the seat of your pants. I ask you to look underneath the surface, to the roots of what is spurring you ahead, and you may find both pain and joy.
Let’s start with the joy. The innocent heart, bursting forth with an expression of love and creativity – this is the kind of joy I am thinking of. The joy of sprinting on fresh grass, of a butterfly landing on your finger, of blowing bubbles in the shade or spending all day making a sand castle with kids you just met.
Now let’s talk about the pain (you know you like it, baby). The peer pressure to shut off the open valve of creative flow. Giving in to the threat of a queen bee policing a stifling hierarchy. The shame and burden of going along with what you know to be wrong out of fear that it will sound out of place in the social order, get you called out, or worse, castigated.
The money-making work you are doing now, is an important fortifying step to heal old wounds and reinvigorate your creative impulse. Invite your inner child back in. This is one of those moments when pure, innocent fun and games will win the day. Bolster your pride, and go for the gold, confident in your inner knowing. The wisdom of the a child innocently speaking the truth will set the tone and establish direction towards a lasting game plan.
You are taking your time to completely reinvent yourself. It’s complicated, and a long story how you got here in the first place. There’s family expectations and burdens. You are trying to live up to said expectations and handle the damn burdens. Here you are, in your workshop laboratory, industriously freeing yourself from these weights your born into. It’s more laborious than meets the eye.
Your efforts towards home, property and exploring your past will pay off. More profitable than career pursuits seem to be anyhow. You can find some profit in connecting your career and worldly pursuits to your origin story or hometown.
I want to point out a little window of light that opens onto a vast world, where you will have more freedom. At one time, as we grow up, we treat our child selves as a country cousins. On the run towards sophistication, we crumple up and stuff down our earliest memories and beliefs, seemingly immature ideas that didn’t add up.
Now is a chance to look back, not just for therapy or reprocessing. Rediscover the grace and simplicity of your child’s eye view of life. Go back to something that worked for you when you were young, and trust its country wildflower way of just being plainly itself.
You are rediscovering who you are and what you offer the world, but instead of marching triumphantly forward, it’s been a slog. A humbling wait in a long ass line. Core pieces of your identity feel more complicated than ever. You can try to plan what it is you want to do, the valuable role you want to play, but the secure sense of purpose that you envision escapes your grasp.
Why not let sleeping dogs lie for the moment. Let that figure itself out under the surface for now.
Let me lure you away to a gem-filled lagoon of enchantment. Why not practice your talents. While away the hours playing music, making paintings and writing little stories. Romp in the fores-
But… Get gainfully employed, they said. Life’s a bitch, they said. That Pisces weirdo better figure out a way to pay the rent, they said.
Ignore them. If you want to prove that you’re “being responsible” then commit to something wholesome and edifying. Keep it basic. Stay hydrated. Go on a 10-minute walk every morning. Take a social media break. I mean definitely do that. Just be with the wind in the leaves and your natural creative talents. Talk to friends and collaborators who you like to play with. Be with kids, and let their wonder lead your days. Explore nature. Lie on your back with a pal and have a conversation while peering up at the stars. Write down your dreams.